R.I.P and Merry Christmas Dad. I am glad we reconnected a few years ago, not because you had changed all that much, not because it brought me all that much joy, it’s actually been very hard. You know that. You were very hard. I cut you off twice in that time lol. Once for a year. Although that was because of your brother. But our last emails, the ones right before you died. They were kind emails and I’m glad.
I found it very hard to hear about what happened to you as a child. What happened to all of your siblings at the hands of St Augustine’s and other orphanages and boys homes in Melbourne. Brother Houston I hope you rot in jail. None of this undoes the abuse I incurred down the line, but it helped me understand you. To try to understand you was to love you. R.I.P dad I’m very sorry no one protected you. I’m very sorry life was not so much more. I’m devastated really. You’re probably blown away by how sad I am. if you can see me.
Although I refused to believe your friend Brian Marshall was Jesus, I mean heck, he ran an anti Lgbt cult.. I do very much hope he is wherever you are and you are surrounded by family and friends.
P.s I don’t think you ever really said sorry. Not really. You didn’t know where to begin, but I forgave you. And I still do. Love u.
